Have you experience being caught in the middle, when you can't find escape, whichever way you turn you will end up to the loosing end? That's what I'm in situation now, whenever, whatever the decision i would make, I would never win.

Early this year I found out about this, my husband has a child to another woman almost same age as my eldest son, though there's a hunch, but when it was finally confirmed, it hurts like hell! This is a revelation I wish i never know, the wound turns to scar, November 1 is the so called birthday of his son to another woman, I felt numb hallow right now, I felt betrayed, hurt and abuse

Hay! I'am teary eye right now, I just finished watching the movie If only, starring Jennifer love Hewitt and Paul Nicholls, My Dvd sucks and I watched it for almost three hours because it keep on crampling argh!(pirated hahahha)



PLOT SUMMARY

After his impetuous musician girlfriend, Samantha (Hewitt), dies in an accident shortly after they had a fight (and nearly broke up), a grief-stricken British businessman, Ian Wyndham (Nicholls), living in London gets a chance to relive the day all over again, in the hope of changing the events that led up to her getting killed...



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It was a very touching movie for me, The moral lesson is to show and tell the person we love how we love them,doesn't matter if we only have 5 minutes or fifty years, let's love them like there's no tommorow, we live in our choices and our choices can make our life change completely, In life possibilities are endless so it is important to be the best that we can be, to spread love as much as we can, because we never know till when we can be with the one we love.

I was wondering where all the good guys are, if there's any, Are those guys only exist in novel, movies and dreams? Are they now extinct?

In reality there was no Prince charming neither knight in shining armour, but I'm not asking for both A man who treats woman with respect is enough for me.

When you and your boyfriend had a fight, did you both throw harsh words that you know would hurt each others feeling? I thought most woman do that, but to my experience and to the environment where I was in, most man did that , saying harsh word, and you know what's their excuse? "Ganun lang naman ako, di ka na nasanay sa kin, ganun lng ako magsalita pag galit but I dont really mean that"

And that was Bullshit!!

1. When you're angry you tell what was really in your mind.
2. What you really thought about that person
3. You will never say anything if that's not what you think.

So in other words you really mean it.

No matter if the words came out from anger, the impact of those words cuts deeply to the recipient, it will be kept inside and left a scar that won't heal.

GUys guys....

Pause for the dreams, let's get some lyrics,

My dad went to Kuwait when I was twelve, They said I'm a dad's pet, he was there for two years then come back stay with two months then gone again and so on and so forth, I realize that we missed a lot of time we should had spend together, because when he got home, I'm already pregnant and run away with my husband. I thought even when a father could provide financially, there's no other thing than his presence, not that I'm blaming anyone, because I'm not, I know he's sacrifices and I salute him for that, I just felt sorry that the family which is supposed to be always together, needed to be apart for the living, blame it to the economy or what, anyways, here is the song I guess of all the dad's to their daughters




There's two things I know for sure:
She was sent here from heaven and she's
daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes and
I thank god for all the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all
For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;
sticking little white flowers all up in her
hair; "Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried."
In all that I've done wrong I know I must
have done something right to deserve a hug
every morning and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet 16 today
She's looking like her mama a little more everyday
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and make-up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world.

But I remember
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer; sticking
little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you, Daddy, But if you
don't mind I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong I must have done
something right to deserve her love every morning
and butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by.
Precious butterfly.
Spread your wings and fly.

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride-room just staring at her.
She asked me what I'm thinking and I said "I'm not
sure-I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
She leaned over&;gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there,
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk my down the aisle, Daddy-it's just about time."
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, Daddy? Daddy, don't cry!"

Oh, with all that I've done wrong I must have
done something right.
To deserve your love every morning and butterfly
kisses-I couldn't ask God for more, man this is what love is.

I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always remember
every hug in the morning and butterfly kisses.